Sebastian called shortly after four in the afternoon.
I was finishing a consultation when my phone vibrated in my pocket. I stepped into an empty office to answer it.
"I've spoken with the people involved," he said.
"And?"
"They're willing to meet with you."
"Today?"
"Tomorrow morning."
I closed my eyes briefly.
"Where?"
"The same office where we met before."
"Who will be there?"
"The woman you spoke with at the hospital, and the person you met during our earlier conversation."
I remembered that meeting.
The room had been quiet, the documents neatly arranged, and every answer had seemed to lead to another question.
"Will anyone else be there?"
"Not that I know of."
"Will you bring the photograph and the original documents?"
"Yes."
"And will they answer my questions?"
"I've made it clear that you're asking for a direct explanation."
"That's not what I asked."
There was a pause.
"I can't guarantee what another person will say, Dr. Miller. I can guarantee that I'll bring what I have."
It wasn't a satisfying answer, but it was an honest one.
"Tomorrow morning," I said. "I won't wait beyond that."
"I understand."
After we hung up, I remained in the office for a moment.
The fluorescent light above the desk flickered once, then steadied.
I looked at the clock.
I had spent the day working, but I hadn't escaped the questions. They were waiting for me whenever I stopped moving.
I thought of calling an old friend, someone who had known Emily for most of her life.
I even opened my contacts.
Then I closed them again.
I didn't want to turn an uncertain photograph and a few troubling conversations into a story that would spread before I knew what was true.
I owed Emily more care than that.
That evening, I went back to Sophie's room.
Her mother was helping her drink water through a straw. Sophie looked tired, but she turned her head when I entered.
"Hello again," I said.
"You're back."
"I told you I'd be nearby."
She gave me a small nod.
Her mother set the cup down.
"Sebastian called me," she said.
"He called me, too."
"He told me about the meeting tomorrow."
I pulled a chair toward the bed.
"Are you going?"
"Yes."
"Will you tell me what you can?"
She looked at Sophie before answering.
"I will."
I wanted to believe her.
But I had learned that wanting something to be true was not the same as knowing it.
I checked Sophie's progress and asked about her pain. She answered quietly, sometimes pausing to find the right words.
When I finished, she watched me put my pen away.
"Do you have a little girl?" she asked.
The question caught me off guard.
"I had a daughter," I said. "Her name was Emily."
"Where is she?"
I sat still for a moment.
"She died in an accident."
Sophie's fingers tightened around the edge of the blanket.
"I'm sorry."
"Thank you."
"Was she little?"
"She was grown up. She had a daughter of her own."
"Was her daughter little?"
"Yes. Her name was Lucy."
Sophie looked down at her hands.
"Did she get hurt in the accident, too?"
I could have given her a softer answer. I could have changed the subject.
But she had asked a simple question, and she deserved a truthful response that she could understand.
"Yes," I said. "Lucy died, too."
Sophie didn't speak for several seconds.
Then she said, "That's very sad."
"It was."
Her mother reached over and touched her shoulder.
I felt the old ache in my chest, but I didn't look away from the child.
Sophie was not responsible for what I had lost.
She was a frightened five-year-old trying to understand why the adults around her were carrying so much sorrow.
I didn't want her to feel she had to comfort me.
"You don't need to worry about me," I told her. "Your job right now is to rest and get better."
She nodded.
I stood and said goodnight.
In the corridor, her mother followed me.
"She asks questions when she's worried," she said.
"That's normal."
"I know."
She looked exhausted. Her hair had come loose from behind one ear, and there were faint creases on her face from sleeping in a chair.
I recognized that kind of exhaustion.
It was the exhaustion of someone who had spent too long being afraid of what might happen next.
"I don't want Sophie caught in the middle of something she doesn't understand," I said.
"Neither do I."
"Then tomorrow, we need to separate what concerns her from whatever happened before."
She nodded.
"I agree."
I left the hospital after checking that the night team had everything they needed.
At home, I warmed a bowl of soup and ate half of it at the kitchen counter.
I didn't turn on the television.
I couldn't have told anyone what was on the screen if I had.
Instead, I sat with the leather-bound address book I had kept since Emily was alive. It contained old telephone numbers, notes from family gatherings, and reminders I had once thought important enough to write down.
I found Emily's name.
Beside it, in my own handwriting, was the number she had used before changing phones.
I remembered calling her one Sunday afternoon and hearing Lucy shouting in the background.
Emily had told me they were making pancakes.
She'd promised to call me back after they finished eating.
She had called later that evening.
Nothing about that memory was extraordinary. That was why it hurt.
A life wasn't made only of birthdays and major events. It was made of small promises, ordinary calls, and the assumption that there would be another chance.
I put the address book away.
Before bed, I placed Emily and Lucy's photograph on the kitchen table, where I could see it while I drank my morning coffee.
I wasn't looking for a sign.
I was reminding myself why I needed to be careful.
Whatever I learned the next day, I would not allow my grief to decide what the evidence meant.
The next morning, I arrived at the office ten minutes early.
Sebastian was already waiting in the lobby.
He stood when I approached.
"They're upstairs," he said.
"Everyone?"
"The people we discussed."
I looked at the folder under his arm.
"Do you have the photograph?"
"Yes."
"And the documents?"
"Everything I was given."
We took the elevator.
The doors opened onto the same quiet corridor. A cleaner was wiping fingerprints from a glass door, and the smell of fresh cleaning solution followed us toward the office.
Inside, the unnamed person from our earlier meeting sat at the table.
Sophie's mother was beside the window.
She rose when I entered.
"Dr. Miller."
I took the chair opposite them.
"I appreciate that you've agreed to meet," I said. "But I need to be clear about something."
Nobody interrupted.
"I have heard that my daughter is connected to this situation. I've been shown a photograph and a document. I've been told that my name was familiar to someone who brought Sophie to the hospital."
I looked from one face to the other.
"Those are fragments. I need to know which parts are facts, which parts are assumptions, and which parts nobody here can explain."
Sebastian placed the folder on the table.
"That's fair," he said.
"Then let's begin with the photograph."
He opened the folder and slid it toward me.
I looked at the image again.
The face was the same one I had recognized before. I knew it was connected to Emily, though I still couldn't say precisely how the connection fit into the larger picture.
I examined the edges, the background, and the way the photograph had been preserved.
It offered no answer by itself.
"Who gave this to you?" I asked.
Sebastian answered carefully.
"It came through the people who asked me to contact you."
"That's not a name."
"No."
"Do you know who took it?"
"Not with certainty."
I leaned back.
"Then don't tell me what it proves."
He nodded.
I turned to Sophie's mother.
"What do you know about this photograph?"
She studied it before answering.
"I was told it was important. I wasn't the person who took it, and I wasn't present when it was made."
"Did you recognize the person in it?"
"Yes."
"From where?"
She pressed her lips together.
"I knew about that person through what I had been told. I didn't know them the way you knew Emily."
The distinction mattered, even if it didn't answer my question.
"Who told you?"
"I need to explain that in the proper order."
I felt frustration rise again.
"Then explain it in the proper order."
She lowered her eyes for a moment.
"You're right. I keep asking you to wait when you've already waited long enough."
The room fell silent.
She drew a breath.
"I know that your daughter was part of the reason this meeting was arranged. I know Sophie is connected to the circumstances that brought us all here. But I don't want to claim a connection that I can't prove."
"That's the first thing anyone has said today that I can use," I replied.
Sebastian took out the document.
"We should review what is actually written here."
I read it slowly.
The wording raised questions about Emily's circumstances, but the page did not establish a complete account. There were references I couldn't interpret without the person who had prepared the information.
I pointed to one section.
"What does this mean?"
The unnamed person leaned forward.
"It was included because someone believed it was relevant."
"That tells me why it was included. It doesn't tell me what it means."
"I don't know enough to explain that line."
"Then we need the person who does."
"Yes," Sebastian said. "We do."
For the first time, the conversation had stopped circling the same vague assurances.
We had identified what we possessed, what we knew, and what remained unanswered.
It wasn't the revelation I had hoped for.
But it was a beginning.
I gathered the pages into a neat stack.
"Nobody is going to turn this into a story about my daughter without evidence," I said. "And nobody is going to use Sophie's condition to pressure me into believing something that hasn't been established."
Sophie's mother nodded.
"I wouldn't ask you to do that."
"Good. Because I won't."
I stood.
"We need the person who can explain the photograph and the document. Arrange that meeting. Until then, I don't want another guess presented as an answer."
Sebastian closed the folder.
"I'll make the arrangements."
I believed he intended to try.
I still didn't know whether the next conversation would finally explain the connection to Emily.
But I knew what I would do if it didn't.
I would keep asking for facts.
And I would keep looking after the little girl in the hospital, whether or not her story ever gave me the answers I wanted.
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